I Struggled with Depression before God Lifted Me Up!
"I didn’t know much at the time and would just agree and carry on, going my own way, with no thought of God."
As time went on and years passed, I was going through some really hard times. I had gotten fired from my job, and I found it difficult to deal with. This would make me fall into a deep state of depression, anxiety, and loss of interest in everything. I truly thought I had no purpose in this life. Another thing that I would struggle with was the reality of death. Several of my family members and friends had passed away, and their deaths would hit me hard. I would blame myself somehow for their death – maybe I hadn’t prayed hard enough for them, or I had done something to make God mad. I would even try to beg God to take me instead. It would get so bad that my thoughts would become suicidal.
In October of 2019, I started a new job as a certified nurse aide in Kutztown. I thought that this was a good time to start over with my life and maybe God had a plan for me after all. That is when I met Rachel. We had an instant connection and became really good friends. As we talked, she mentioned things about God and asked me if I wanted to go to church on Sunday. Then afterward, she asked me to do a Bible study with her. I didn’t know what I was getting into, but I thought that I should try something new. We did the Bible study at Rachel’s house, and God began working in my heart. This is when I saw a change in my life. II Corinthians 5:7 says: “For we walk by faith not by sight.” This verse is very true and straight to the point. I had been walking in the sight of this world but in reality, I needed to be walking in faith in the Lord.
"When I was done praying, I knew immediately that I was a new person!"